Half the time I feel like I have 0 time and everything is crowded on top of me and the other half I’ve got an abundance of time but no matter which of these stages my life is at, I always make time for myself and to do the things which I enjoy.
Being a mum, it is quite hard to sit down and to read a book or even eat a hot plate of food sometimes and there are a number of tricks which I have learned to make the days a nice balance. One of the main things that I have worked out works best for me, is strict scheduling. Ever since Leo has been a young baby he has always fallen into a routine pretty quickly but even so we work hard to make sure that it is kept.
I am a person who would prefer to get up early as opposed to go to bed later (if you told me this two years ago that I would be saying that I would probably laugh in your face) so making sure that Leo’s bedtimes are earlier is essential. On a normal night he will fall asleep at between 8:30 and 9pm and this works nicely for everyone. To be honest If I had it my way it would be earlier but Rico gets home from work between 7:30pm and 8pm so it gives them a nice little bit of time together in the evenings before bedtime.
This means that he wakes up at around 6am. Leo likes to watch cartoons for the first half hour to 45 minutes when he wakes up and play with his toys on the floor until he fancies breakfast so that is usually the time where I make him his morning bottle in preparation of when he wants it and update my blog if I need to. Then while Leo is drinking his morning bottle and having his morning porridge I will usually put the washing in the washing machine.
His naps are also pretty consistent on a day to day basis, his first being at around 11am and second being a couple of hours later and this is usually the point in the day when I am able to catch up on my tv programmes or read a book. I’m really thinking about getting an ebook so I can read when Leo is awake as he is drawn in by book pages and finds great amounts of entertainment in ripping my pages and sometimes even eating them.
I’ve found recently that I really enjoy reading fantasy books (which I’ve enjoyed since I was a little girl), I am also teaching myself sign language and attempting to teach leo baby sign language (he knows the sign for food and laughs whenever I do it before a meal), me and Rico also like to make time to watch films because cinema going has always been one of out favourite activities since we first starting dating and even though we can’t go to the cinema for the time being we still thoroughly enjoy finding good new films.
Work has also been one of the biggest factors in my free time as I have a beautiful lengthy bus journey which gives me the opportunity to read sometimes whole books. Unfortunately I haven’t mastered is sleeping on any kind of transport and is something to be thoroughly desired. Hopefully one I can one day achieve.
I‘ve dealt with body confidence issues for all of my life. There have been periods of time when my entire self worth was based on how much I appreciated my body and other times when I couldn’t even look at myself naked in a bathroom mirror without cringing. One of the things that I was most worried about after having leo was how I was going to perceive myself and to be honest it went pretty much as expected.
From the time Leo was born up until recently I have been dealing with a lot of self-hatred and difficulty accepting my new weight. I went from a size 12 to a size 18 which is a massive jump and the fact that I didn’t fit into the majority of my old clothes really made me feel uncomfortable going out and even just seeing people.
I was so infatuated with the weight that I had put on and the way that my body had changed I didn’t realise that it’s normal and obsessing over pounds and stretch marks is unhealthy, so the past couple of weeks I have tried massively to change my view. Instead of obsessing over my weight I am now concentrating on being healthy in general. So getting exercise and eating healthy is my new priority. I’m not going to worry about the way my body looks because as long as I treat myself well, in theory I should feel well about myself.
I dealt with my weight gain for a long time with binge eating unhealthy food which is so so unhealthy for your mental, physical health and every single thing else. I did not value myself so didn’t treat myself. Now I am making a conscious effort to home cook everything, not eat in between meals and doing exercise at home.
So I exercise by going outside everyday but I also make a conscious effort to do sit ups when Leo is in his chair as he finds that exercise the most entertaining (every time I sit up I make faces at him and he finds it hilarious). I increase the amount of sit ups I do a day by 5 and a currently on 50 a day. I find it the most motivating way to exercise consistently.
This is the current weight that I am at and I feel so so happy.
Hello my lovelies,
It was literally three weeks ago that I was writing a post about receiving 500 followers and now I have just hit 600. Every single day I feel like I enjoy blogging more and more and seeing positive reactions and growth is just the icing on the cake.
Being a blogger, especially about parenting is a real community and the sense of being able to have a little rant and someone reply and genuinely be interested or helpful is a really nice feeling. I’m so thankful for every single thing that I have in my life and everyone who follows my blog and the ability to express myself in the way that I want.
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I know what you’re thinking, Clickbait? Unfortunately not, I would love for this post to be exactly that, I really would but I genuinely cannot stop sleep walking and to be honest this is more of a cry for help than a blog post. I have never frequently sleep walked before, if ever? and to be quite real with you I never ever thought I would suffer with this weird ailment in my life.
It began like most parents the sleepless nights, getting up regularly to feed and comfort their baby. We have gone through a lot of different stages with Leo’s sleeping pattern from sleeping in his moses basket, to him developing bronchitis and co-sleeping to attempting, to get him to sleep in his cot and failing, to him finally becoming ready to sleep in his cot and now me preventing him.
Now a pretty standard night will start with Leo falling asleep at about 8:30pm and sleeping through until at least 11pm. I will always feed him and put him back in his cot and go to sleep but every single morning without fail, I will wake up to his charming little face either poking me in the eye or crawling over my head. This means I either have an extremely clever child who can get out of their cot which is 3/4 their height crawl over to our bed and climb up into our bed (not likely at all) or I’m sleep walking and just bringing him into the bed every night.
I am pretty open when I say I have no problem with co-sleeping. I understand the risk and I do everything that I can to make it as safe for him as possible. We have a huge bed guard, he sleeps away from rico and never has any of the duvet or pillows. Like I said before we co-slept from about 2-6 months so that is not my issue. My issue is that I want him to stay in a regular routine which is easy for everybody involved and to be honest I have no idea what to do and the thought of me picking him up and feeding him when I’m in a delirious state makes me completely uneasy.
I’ve tried everything I can at this stage to prevent this from happening, I’ve moved Leo’s cot into the furthest point in our room so I physically have to get up and pick him up as opposed to before when his cot was pushed next to my bed but even that didn’t work.
So what I’m trying to say if their are any mamas who have dealt with this or have even just any suggestions or tips, please can you give me some advice. I genuinely don’t know what to do at this point?
I have never been to the Norfolk show before and I feel quite honestly if I’d have gone before I had Leo I would have dragged my feet the entire way around in a mood, so it’s worked out nicely. Since I’ve had my baby I have realised what’s important and that’s my family and Leo. I appreciate my parents and jump at the chance of going out with them now, especially on days out which Leo is starting to enjoy more and more. So the Norfolk show with my mum was a chance I jumped at and it was wonderful.
There were hundreds of stalls and shows and it exceeded my expectations massively, there was even a stall that my work had hired out which I didn’t even realise.
Leo’s still quite little so he didn’t find the main events particularly entertaining, he found entertainment in all of the scaffolding which surrounded the different events and ended up constantly wanted to lick the metal. each to their own. We also watched the horses going around and Leo’s just learned how to clap so he found great enjoyment in clapping and getting praised everytime everyone else clapped. There was such a variety of different activities, it was really wonderful.
There were multiple tents for all of the different animals which included, goats, pigs, sheep, ducks, chickens, and cows. Fun fact, I have actually always wanted chickens in my garden but have a bit of a phobia of birds (and after proof reading this blog I realised I actually don’t have a garden right now, just a balcony) I really like the silkie chickens though they’re so little and cute and fluffy, I think that they’d be made for me.
And then it came to the tent that I was looking forward to, the food tent which was actually the busiest. It was full of every kind of food and I managed to grab probably more than a dozen different samples which was the highlight of my day actually. There is a definite finesse that you have to learn when you are trying to take all of the samples of food without buying anything which includes having the best small talk ever.
Have any of you guys been to the Norfolk show?
I love bloggers who are brutally honest, they are literally the angels who flew down from heaven. The people who are completely happy to say that their child just spit up in their hair or they forgot to give their child dinner before they go to bed because everyone does it and as much as I love so so many different varieties of blogs including the ones who are all super duper happy all day and nothing ever goes wrong it can be a bit of a blow to your motivation when you read these peoples blogs and realise that you can’t do that.
I promise you that everyone is the same, everyone has days where they wish they could cry and sleep and eat horrible food and pawn your child off on a family member because it’s just too much and I promise that it’s completely ok. Parenting is such a learning curve every single day and sometimes you are doing 2 loads of washing with a baby under your arm on 2 hours sleep whilst feeling happy and don’t give it a second thought. Think about how incredible that is.
So I thought that I’d just give context to my day so far. Leo didn’t want to go to sleep until about 12:30 last night when his bedtime is usually 8:30pm and it is now 1:06 pm the next day and we still haven’t napped so I can imagine today is going to be similar. He has been running around butt naked and everytime I come near him with a nappy he screams at me so I am just letting him watch peppa pig whilst playing with the nappy he should be wearing because I am just too tired to argue with him. On the other hand I got a cute video of him shaking his booty to ‘bubble butt’ which was entertaining but I have to hoover, iron the washing, clean all of the kitchen and go to the shops to get something for dinner but I am completely procrastinating with this blog post so thanks guys for that.
I hope if any mamas out their are having a bad day they realise that it’s ok and you don’t need to be perfect every single day at all and just to enjoy the tiny little points in a day. Comparing yourself to someone is the worst thing that you could do and it’s important to always hold yourself to your personal standard and not someone else’s because you never know what goes on behind the closed door.
Here’s a couple of photos of Leo mid yawn and then laughing at himself for yawning.
If you haven’t read my first blog post in this tiny, mini series then you can do so if you click the link HERE and that will basically sum up what’s going on but if you can’t be bothered (I don’t blame you at all) then that’s fine.
So I’ve been feeling pretty happy recently and decided that for once I was going to help sustain my positivity. I’m fed up of feeling happy for a while and then crashing down and I’ve tried methods to raise my levels when I’m down but I’ve never taken my future into my hands to make positive steps.
So for an entire week I decided to do 30 minutes exercise before lunch every single day to see how I felt after and whether it help me stay happy and whether I could continue the exercise.
Usually when I am having negative spells I find it difficult to tidy, look after myself and 100% of my energy goes into looking after Leo and not much else. Previously before Leo I would just lay in bed and would find it so difficult to even do the simplest tasks. I’m sick of feeling like this but have had pretty bad experiences with counselling and being prescribed meds so I’m going to do a number of different tasks by myself for myself.
So the week started off pretty well, I actually managed to do loads of things and had a really busy week. i managed to do all of my washing and ironing and kept the house tidy and had time to concentrate on Leo which was nice and even when I was exercising it didn’t even really feel like it because we just went to the park multiple times which was really sweet. I think if Leo could spend all day everywhere just attempting to eat the sand then he would for sure. He spent the entire week just in a state of being cheery and happy.
I have to say towards the end of the week I did actually feel quite down, not because I was having a low spell but it was a week before my period and I always get a bit low and emotional but I did still manage to do all of my exercise and housework, I didn’t even cancel on anybody because I am notorious for doing that when I am having a low spell.
All in all I think it was entirely worth while. I’m actually taking a stand to exercise more in general and am trying to go out on work out based fast walks at least 2 or 3 days a week which will hopefully continue the spell of feeling on top of the world.
Hello my lovely humanoids,
I am so so happy today because I finally hit 500 followers which is super exciting. I know that doesn’t sound like much I started this blog 8 months ago and only really expected to be blogging for only a couple of months before I got distracted and moved onto something else like I do with pretty much every single one of my hobbies.
So being able to grow and progress so much in 8 months has been a really positive thing in my life. It has helped with my anxiety and motivation and just keeping my own identity and not dying of loneliness and I have also met some really rad people in similar situations or with the same interests, it’s been such a positive part of my life and I am proud of myself for how far I have come on my own.
So thank you for joining my sometimes pointless ramblings, I thoroughly, thoroughly appreciate it.
So today is actually fathers day and I know that in an ideal world this will be written, edited and posted today we definitely don’t live in an ideal world. So I’m pretty sure that if you’re reading this on the day that it is posted then I hope you had a really lovely Tuesday.
Firstly I want to say Thankyou, Thankyou for being such a caring and considerate person. Thankyou for being there for me throughout everything over the last 2 years and most of all Thankyou for sticking with me when times were tough and we had to work super duper hard for us to reach our own personal piece of bliss. I am a lucky girl to be able to wake up every day to not one but two beautiful boys ready to greet me and make it so much easier to get up in the morning.
There have been times over the last couple of years when we have both found it difficult, an unexpected pregnancy, moving 200 miles and having to create an entire life together in only a number of months and I admire you so much for being able to leave everything you had to start a life you could have no idea about. Even though we squabble like children, we will never go to bed angry and the times that you have held me for hours whilst I have been shaking and cried from anxiety attacks.
Seeing you with our son is the most heartwarming image and knowing that he loves you just as much as I do fills me with joy. I pretend to be annoyed when you’re paranoid if he’s got a temperature or glands are swollen but in reality it’s adorable. I could not imagine spending my life with anyone else and I’m grateful for you every day.